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| " Dont be sad because its gone, instead be happy because it happened."
This is my last post...for now. I will be back November 16th 2007.
"Real education is bringing the best out of yourself." - Mohandas K Gandhi
this has been more than just a xanga. it has been a place where i can just rant and rant and rant, a place where i can spill my heart out, a place where i can say everything and anything. and the comments are great too. but lately all my posts have just been sad melancholic posts, and it just doesnt reflect who i am...although it does reflect how i feel. instead of bringing everyone down with me, i have decided to just take a break from everything, and just focus on my studies. No more sad entries, no more depressed me, no more me wishing this me doubting that, no more sad jin. the next time you hear from jinnieismee, itll be about how i frking gunned VCE, shot down my BM exam, ass-raped my english exam, had an awesome threesome with chem and accounting, and probably got spanked by methods. the next time i come back, you'll hear about the good things in life, you'll hear about what made me smile today, instead of how shit i feel.
"Kind words can be short and easy to speak...but their echoes are truly endless." - Mother Theresa
i have realised who i am, i have realised the things ive done, and most importantly ive realised the affect i have on people. life is a journey of self-discovery, where one constantly changes him or herself for the better. i embarked on this journey 3 weeks ago, but i have stumbled. my plan didnt work, it was all a dream, and now ive awaken only to realise that i never left on that journey, and i am where i started. so from tonight onwards, im leaving on my little adventure, which will not only bring out the best in me, but will bring about a new me. =)
"We must understand what we have been, to decide what we will become."
- John Faulkner.
"Until you make peace with who you are, youll never be content with what you have." - Doris Mortman
for all of you who have paid some attention to jinnieismee, commented, made an effort to read my long long posts, i just want to say thank you. it means a lot to me knowing that people do care, people do make an effort to know how your day was and how youre feeling. the last year or so has been a wild one, lots of emotional stuff, and you guys have always left a comment, a cheerful comment, everytime i was down. thank you. every word youve said, everything youve done, it means the world to me.
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart." - Helen Adams Keller.
For the past few weeks, the vision of who my true and real friends are were very blurry. i didnt know who actually wanted to be there for me, i didnt know who i could turn to in times of need, i didnt know who i could turn to for support and comfort, who couldve made me laugh and just forget about everything. But now i have a much clearer vision, those who were left unappreciated by me, i apologise, but now i do realise who my true friends are, the ones that arent just always there for me, but theyre the ones that actually want to be there for me. Thanks for always being there for me. You know who you are. You light up my day every single day. You guys give me a reason to wake up every single morning, and help me sleep every single night. You guys cry with me when i feel down and alone, feel as though no one understands, but you guys make an effort, you hug me, you comfort me, you make me see that theres so much more in life. thanks.
Leanne bought me a card once, when i was really sad and down. It was probably one of the most meaningful and sweetest thing i have ever received in my entire life. It was a nice and simple card that said ... (leanne didnt write this, its part of the card)
A friend is someone you turn to when you have no place to go,
But a true friend is someone you stop and talk to
when you have a million places to be,
and yet, and yet,
you want to see how they are.
A friend is someone who tells you it will be okay,
A true friend is someone who stays with you or calls until it is.
A friend is like a day of fine, fine, weather...
A true friend reminds you that some days the
sky can be blue(even if it isnt right then).
A friend will meet you at the finish line...
A true friend lights the way.
how true is that?
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"Its never too late to do a lot of things. Its never too late to bring a smile onto someones face, its never too late to make someone laugh, its never too late to show someone that you truly care for them, its never to late to give someone a hug and let them know that theyre appreciated, its never too late to learn to love, its never too late to be loved." - jin.
"The pessimist see's the challenge in the opportunity, but the optimist sees the opportunity in the challenge." - Luan Thi Nguyen.
"If you always do what youve always done, you'll always get what you've always got." - Anonymous. (so do something different in life, and you'll get something different back)
"Rather light a candle than complain about darkness." - Chinese Proverb
"And in the end its not the years in your life that count, its the life in your years." - Abraham Lincoln
"Kindness is more important than wisdom, and the recognition of this is the beginning of wisdom." - Theodore Isaac Rubin
"Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens." - Carl Jung
"The spirit is the true self." - Cicero
"If you have, give. If you learn, teach." - Maya Angelou
"The struggle is my life. I will continue fighting for freedom until the end of my days." - Nelson Mandela
"The richness of life lies in memories we have forgotten." - Cesare Pavese
"Time spent laughing is time spent with the Gods." - Japanese Proverb
"To love someone deeply gives you strength, to be loved by someone deeply gives you courage." - Lao Tse
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My Memories.
"A life not lived for others is a life not worth living at all." - Albert Einstein
James Carrington - Ache
Isn't it strange, the way things can change
Life that you lead turned on its head
Suddenly someone means more than you felt before
A house and its yard turns into home
I'm sorry but I meant to say
Many things along the way
So this one's for you
Have I told you I ache,
have I told you I ache,
Have I told you I ache, for you...
Have I told you I ache, and I hope it's not too late,
Could I hold you and ache, for you...
Hours that it took, writing words for my book
Seems to have broken
The gate that I shut last time I got hurt
Seems to have opened itself
All the world it's spinning now, it's tryina catch me up
Tell me to appreciate, here and now
I'm sorry but I meant to say
So many things along the way
So this one's for you
Have I told you I ache,
have I told you I ache,
Have I told you I ache, for you...
Have I told you I ache, and I hope it's not too late,
Could I hold you and ache, for you... 
the happiness you brought to me i had
never felt before. the love you showed to me, made me
feel on top of the world. the attention you gave, made
me feel wanted. the care you showed, made me feel
human. the belief and confidence you had in me,
made me feel as though i can do anything. you opened
me up to a world i never knew existed, feelings i never
thought i couldve ever felt. what we have, no one
can ever take it away. thanks for leaving footprints in my mind, in my heart,
and in my life. | | |
| this is my latest song. personally, its the song that really came from my heart. all my other songs were pretty deep and all that, and i meant it all. it came from the depths of my heart. it isnt related to any of my lifes experiences, its just a song, and hopefully its a song that may related to you, all the broken-hearted people out there. =]
Jin - Maybe.
Maybe what you need is…
Someone that won’t make you cry,
Someone that will take you high,
Someone different from me.
Maybe I wasn’t the one you wanted,
Maybe it wasn’t me you loved,
Maybe I wasn’t the one you were thinking of,
Maybe I wasn’t the one you were missing all along,
Was it just because I was always there?
I think its time you know this,
Maybe it was all a mistake.
How can something feel so right,
But oh so bad at the same time,
I wish you could still be mine,
But my heart’s telling me I’ll be fine,
I need to start forgetting you,
Holding on is too much to take,
I need to let you go,
It’s the right thing I know,
But why does it feel so wrong?
Maybe you don’t deserve me,
Maybe you should’ve appreciate everything I did,
Maybe you should’ve seen the real me,
Maybe you should’ve loved me.
I tried my best to keep you here,
Tried to keep a smile on your face,
But my heart is broken,
I can’t pretend any longer,
The pain I simply can’t take,
This must be over,
Because my feelings are dead,
My tears are running dry,
I simply cannot lie.
Its too late now,
I’ll make it through somehow,
Without you by my side,
Its gonna be a tough ride,
But theres no me and you anymore,
I’ve finally come to see,
That maybe we were never meant to be.
Maybe I’m everything you ever wanted,
Maybe I’m everything you ever needed,
Or maybe I’m just another guy,
Maybe this was all a mistake,
Maybe I deserve much better than you. | | |
| Jin - Dont Walk Away
Look into my eyes,
Don’t you dare walk away,
Why can’t you see that I need you to stay,
Don’t shut that door,
The door to my heart,
The door that I left open for you.
Every step you take,
You’re out of my reach,
The more I try,
The harder it gets,
The further away you are,
The weaker I become,
You are my only strength.
I’ve tried every key I have,
I’ve tried yes I’ve tried,
Tried to unlock your heart,
I wanted you to show me everything,
But I guess there was nothing,
Your heart’s empty,
And so is mine.
There’s a puddle of tear under me,
I’m sitting here holding onto you,
But how can I be holding you when you’re walking away?
With this photo frame in my hands,
Trying my best to understand,
Knowing that the person in the picture is the real you,
Because I know you’d never walk away like this.
I’ve tried every key I have,
I’ve tried yes I’ve tried,
Tried to unlock your heart,
I wanted you to show me everything,
But I guess there was nothing,
Your heart’s empty,
And so is mine.
I’ll just close my eyes and pretend its okay,
It’s just a scary nightmare,
I’ll wake up from all of this,
And I’ll be in your arms,
That’s where I belong,
You’ll be holding my tight,
You’ll say everything’s alright,
And that it was all a bad dream,
But I know,
That it was a dream that came true,
I’m such a fool. | | |
| Celine Dion - Because you loved me
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love i found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
through it all
You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand i could
touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and i stood tall
I had your love i had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe i don't know that much
But i know this much is true
I was blessed because i was loved by you
You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love
into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when i was weak
You were my voice when i couldn't speak
You were my eyes when i couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when i couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me
I'm everything i am
Because you loved me Take That - Patience Just have a little patience
I’m still hurting from a love I lost
I’m feeling your frustration that
any minute all the pain will stop
just hold me close inside
your arms tonight
don’t be to hard on my emotions
Cause I need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
just try and have a little patience
I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
the one that I can always depend
I’ll try to be strong believe me
I’m trying to move on
it’s complicated but understand me
Cause I need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
just try and have little patience
yeah
Have a little patience yeah
Cause the scars run so deep
it’s been hard but I have to believe
have a little patience
have a little patience
Whooo cause i
I just need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
so while I’m still healing
just try and have a little patience
have a little patience
my heart is numb has no feeling
so while I’m still healing
just try and have a little patience
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| this is just a little something i wrote. its not lyrics to a song, its not a poem, its just a little something.
I knew that in the end,
It would be my heart that hurts,
But i still threw my heart at you,
Hoping that you'd catch it,
Hope,
Thats all I had,
And now,
Im left with nothing.
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I know I'm not good enough for you,
But who is?
For an angel like you.
But i'll still spread my wings and fall,
Knowing that you'll catch me,
Catch me when i fall,
Wipe away my tears,
Erase all of my fears,
Make my heart beat again.
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this song has got me hooked. like seriously. it even inspired me to write another song. my new song is called MAYBE. i wont post it up now, still have to edit it and stuff. but this song is madsome.
Hinder - Better than Me
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in then I start to see
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be
(Oh)
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
(Oh)
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took that you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't wanna lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
(Oh)
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
(Oh)
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm laying in is getting colder
Wish you never would have said it's over
And I can't pretend I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure.
This can't be the end
End
I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this) | | |
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